Come at me

"I want to understand this.
So, you're angry with me?"
What a perfect time to be eloquent
So much to say,
Yet you'll find me silent.
I want to know what's going through your mind
I feel  as if you've surpassed me
You've gone so much more ahead, so fast
You've gone and left me behind.
You were right,
You hit the nail on the head,
You wanted me to burn tonight,
I assure you, babe, I'm burning
You can find the irony
When they tell you what they found
Me lying listless on my bed,
When they tell you how much I bled,
From my heart, my soul and my mind
All those momentarily are lost,
But my body is right here for you to find.
It would be much too easy to leave this world now,
It would be much too chrachteristic,
It would be muct too masochistic,
I want to face this head on,
I want this fire, this fight to live on,
I see only you when for help I look above
Well, babe, I guess I'm in love.

I want you to realise,
The pride I put aside,
To rot in hell as I called you back.
For once I told myself no lies,
I kicked my ego, my façade aside
I let the truth reach inside;
I made no fuss about the way you spoke
I behaved like I had always imagined I would
With my lover cum best friend cum life support
With no pressure of society's expectations and
I forgave your harshness;
I went ahead and cut you some slack.
I was honest with myself about what I want
What I want is not to win
What I want is not to disconnect
What I want is not to tell myself it's over
So I can acquaint myself with a life alone
What I want is not to justify my good luck being gone
What I want is you.

What's the worst that can happen?
How close will my world come to ending?
You might turn around,
Turn my smile upside down,
And tell me you're leaving me.
Solitude and woe is a small price to pay
For the introduction to love
I was given today.
This isnt the first time I've had the guts
To say what was really on my mind.
To get it all off, all at once, all honest
Rather than smile at first,
Lie my way through a couple of days
And then with my real feelings
Sneak up on you from behind.
But today I hurt you?
How does that work?
I affected your composure,
I made you feel resentment,
You felt some pain on my account?
Are you absolutely sure?
Doesn't sound like something I could do.
But, I suppose if I had to believe I could,
I'd believe I could with you.

We really lashed out didn't we?
We really went at it with full force,
We snipped at each other,
Abused the glory out of our accomplishments
Injected poison into the argument
So it lay there exploited
Raped and abused.
I apologized because I felt the pain
Of thinking you thought I wasn't worth forgiveness.
You must hold me in high regard, my love.
At all time, you must think highly of me
If not, what is the point of achieving anything?
Why win if you won't be proud of me?
I can finally roam the streets
Looking like my drabbest self
By consoling myself and thinking,
"I still have him to myself."

Sleep over it, babe,
Close your eyes as mine stay open
Every moment of tonight,
As I infuse my mind
My soul and my heart
With protection, strength and belief
As I think of our beautiful fight
And how in that moment
I jumped off the cliff of reservation
I kicked off the mud of hesitation
And into your love
Into your being,
I took flight.
So, come at with me with the best you've got
Because I've never felt stronger
Than I did after we fought.