It's true, you know.
I am lying.
As are we all.
I tell a lie every second of every minute of every hour of every day of my pathetic, undivine life.
That's just what I do.
And guess who makes me do it?
No, it's not me.
It's not my circumstances, it's not my lack of religion, it's not the absence of any sort of guiding force in my life, it's not even my absolute disregard for whatever little bit of my conscience I have left.
It's you. It's all you. It always has been, it always will be.
You make it so hard for me to be myself around you that I feel the urge to lie to cover up who I truly am. I've been doing this so much that I don't even remember who I was, what I was.
You ask me a question, and my mind goes into a whirl of thoughts I didn't even know I was capable of thinking. My creativity kicks in in ways I never wanted it to. I make excuses for things that are perfectly normal and understandable just the way they are.
You cloud my mind even when you've left, and when you've been gone for months and not shown me your face in decades. How would you care if I didn't see you? It's not like you know you have the power to tear my life to pieces. Gee, I wonder what would happen if you did.
Well, wonder no more.
I know exactly what would happen.
You wouldn't care one little bit more than you do now.
You think I'm exaggerating don't you?
Oh, I can just see your face twisting into that look of condescension you give so routinely. Almost every time I utter a word in your presence, the muscles in your face contort to show an emotion whose expression does to my power of feeling what an atomic bomb does to the Earth- destroy it to shreds so small it's hard to imagine it ever existed at all.
Who are you?
Well, you don't exist.
See? I told you I was lying.
Now that was nice! No seriously, the last line- couldn't help but crack up into a smile.
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You're good, Shrutika.
"Ia bakoitzean zure presentzia hitz bat utter I, zure aurpegia contort en muskuluak zirrara bat bere adierazpena nire zer atomic bomb bat ez sentitzeko ahalmena du erakutsi behar Earth-suntsitu du shreds hain txikia zaila da imajinatzea inoiz existitu guztietan "
ReplyDeletetxingor guztiak DD!
Eta azken lerroan!
Ez duzu ona, bikaina ari zara!
Sarthak. You're a jackass you are!
ReplyDeleteTranslate it doofus.
That's the exact reaction I was hoping for :)
No, really. And thank you so much.
Really.
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ReplyDelete"Almost every time I utter a word in your presence, a sensation of the muscles in your face contort his expression of what I feel is not an atomic bomb has the power to destroy the Earth should be shown in shreds so small it is difficult to imagine that ever existed at all"
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All hail DD!
And the last line!
You aren't just good, You are Brilliant!