Go away.

Sometimes you feel like telling that to people, don't you?

I was telling my two best friends (or 'the reasons for my existence' as I like to call them) about a particular person in my life who I've recently become friends with. We had known each other long before, but we'd never really been friends. I had thought that was changing. But then she went ahead and did something which showed exactly why I didn't like her, why I hadn’t made an effort to get to know her better before, despite our geographical and possible even mental proximity.

What I said above may or may not be true. This girl may or may not exist. But I'm using her as a means to get my point across.

My point being, there is a certain level to which one should get involved in someone else's life. I'm not talking about best friends or even good friends. I’m talking about people who you talk to once in a blue moon. We all learn that lesson somehow. Stay with someone only till it’s easy. Move away when its not fun anymore, or it will turn into something bad. 

I've learned that lesson too. Over and over again. When it's not fun, it probably isn't worth it. Worse, when you can’t justify the pain a particular friendship or relationship is putting you through, it's time to free yourself from it. 

When I tell people something good about myself or something good about my life, or something good about someone in my life, I expect them to listen, take it in, comment, have a conversation or two, and then move on. What I don’t expect is them to become envious of it and try to procure it for themselves. Especially if that means taking it away from m. Get your on good luck, I’d say to them. Learn to be satisfied with what you have. Don’t be an imposition in my life.

And don’t think I’m being arrogant here, cause I’m not. I’m just bringing out a very basic point. If someone doesn’t want to talk to you, why would you want to talk to them? Wouldn’t you rather not talk to anyone than to talk to someone who you know for a fact is secretly hoping you’d take a hike?

Maybe it’s just me, but I doubt it. I don’t think anyone would like to be in a situation where we’re talking to someone, or engaging in a conversation with someone who’d much rather us get a life of our own.

I guess this is where that whole “its only justifiable when it comes to you” thing comes into play. Because I have best friends who have proven, over the last many years, that they will accept me for whatever the fuck I decide to do, I believe by now, at this level of maturity, however less it may be, we should have figured out who wants us around and who doesn’t.

Fine, maybe it’s just me.

But just please.

Go away.